"Saturday night at church, Matt (my pastor) talked about waging war against the sin that is in our lives. I realized that although I am able and willing to acknowledge my sin, I am less quick to correct that sin and fight it with all that I have. I try to rationalize my behavior and play on the line between purity and sin. It is an impossible balancing act that is exhausting and painful.
Two things have seemed to be running constantly through my mind. The first, is James 1:5-6. "If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. But let him ask in faith, without doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind." The second is a song by Phil Wickham called "Messiah". "Look. The road is narrow and hard to find. With secret battles inside our minds, who can last? God, we need your strength to fight, your light to guide us through the night. You're our only chance. Messiah, save us!"
That is my plea. I need to be rescued. Even if I wind up in the same place, and face the same situations, I need to be reminded of God's faithfulness to be my only hope."
What a sobering reminder. I cannot begin to express how excited I am to finally be into a new year. In so many ways, last year was probably the hardest year of my life to date. One of my dear friends reminded me of a verse yesterday that perfectly defines the hope to which I am currently clinging.
"Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert." Isaiah 43:18 -19 ESV
Regardless of my circumstances, God is good and He is making a way.
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